Do You Really Love Me?

While studying today, as always my laptop was opened and pandora was playing on my Anthony Evans station. I had the music volume very low because I was studying biology and being a Chemistry major that hates biology, I have to focus a bit more to force myself to learn the material. Anyways, one by one the music played in the background until one of my favorite song came on called Superstar by Tye Tribbett. I stopped studying to jot the name of the song down and then continued to study. Now here I am wondering what I was going to blog about tonight and God just dropped this question on my heart: Do You Really Love Me?   Are we loving God because He is God, or because of the things He does? I don't know about anyone else, but as for me. my answer is sure. Yes, I love You Lord. I love the Lord with all my heart, and desire to honor Him with every breath I take. I have realized over the years how faithful God has been to me, and I mean faithful even when I was not faithful in return. He has kept me and protected me, provided and defended, and redeemed. He has shown me Love, real unending love and I pray that He grants me the grace to Love Him back and live for Him the way He deserves. I will love and serve the Lord, in the good times and bad, with tears flowing down my face or with laughter rushing from my lips. My Love for the Lord will not be dependent on my circumstances nor condition for I have learned that in ALL things, in living or in dying, He is still God and that alone gives me the greatest peace! The lyrics to another song that plays in my heart always is

♫  Blessed be Your name,
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name  ♫ 

So God is asking you, Do you really love Him? Will your love disappear if the situation changes? What if He postpones a blessing? Will you curse His name if you face death? Is this love for God because of what He does, or because of simply Who He is? The Lord requires our purest love, with no attachment, just loving Him for Who He is. Take time to grow and learn about this God we serve and you'll find it to be so easy to just be lost in His awesomeness! As for me, all I can say is......

" ♫ Oh Lord I just love You for Who You are.....that's all!  ♫ 

Superstar by Tye Tribbett 

Yorkamazing <3

T.M.V- Deuteronomoy 6:5

"Love the Lord thou God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might"

Insanity Results!! I Did It!

When you start a workout program, you long for the day where you can say you did it. Well, today is the day. I FINISH INSANITY! For 60 days, I dug deeper even though some days were good while some days I felt like I was dying, but I Did it! I'm more than proud of myself. As for my results, I lost about 8 pounds total which seems low compared to other results I've seen but I lost a lot of inches and dropped about 3-4 pants sizes depending on the brand. For the first time in my life, I actually bought size 3 pants and a cute size 4 jean shorts! How awesome is that?!? On top of it, I FEEL amazing! I feel so light, healthy, and STRONG! I can now do push ups like never before. :) Below are my results


Fit Test                                   Day 1             Day 60
Switch Kicks                            75                 141
Power Jacks                              50                 70
Power Knees                           70                  118
Power Jumps                           35                   59
Globe Jumps                           10                    14
Suicide Jumps                        13                    23
Push Up Jacks                        20                  46
Low Plank oblique                  45                  83


Measurements                  
Waist (-1.5 inches)
Thigh (-3.5 inches)
Hips (-2.5 inches)
Arm (-1.25 inches)

I took pictures which I will not post (I don't like the idea of having too much flesh showing online), but even though I only lost 8 pounds, I look like I lost much more! I constantly had people approach me to tell me this. When I went home, my family called me "skinny" and even wanted me to end my weight loss journey. But my journey is not one about losing weight. I've had the mindset that all I wanted was to be healthy and in shape. Being skinny was never part of the deal neither was being on a diet. Those aspirations are temporary to me and I was not looking for a short term fix. This is a lifestyle change, something I intend to carry with me throughout my life. I will never go back to my unhealthy habits and neglecting myself like I did before. May the Lord continue to perfect that which concerns me and grant me grace. I encourage everyone to make this journey to being healthy. It truly changes not just your body but your mind and that's an amazing thing to experience.

Operation Complete Insanity is a WRAP!

Yorkamazing <3

Unashamed of Me

There is freedom in being yourself. What I mean by this is that living a life, YOUR life, the way God intends for you to live, liberates you from the judgements and expectations of people, thereby permitting you to be you. You wake up each day with your mind made up that today, no matter who you come across, you will not deny yourself. This concept seems so simple, but I see people struggle with it each day. I see people holding back from being all they could be, their maximum potentials, because of the fear of losing their "reputations". The things they wish to say, they do not say. The endeavors they would love to undertake, they stale their feet because they fear it would not be liked.  So instead of living like God wants and being in the game/action of life, they sit on the sidelines watching others play/live life. This is not living; Your footprint will never be seen, neither your impact felt because you never lived! Personally, I'm learning too to just be FeeFe. There's absolutely nothing wrong with my looks, nothing wrong with the awkward way I laugh, and nothing wrong with my unexplainable sense of humor. The same goes for you. When these things are combine, they blend so uniquely to make the person that you are and that person is BEAUTIFUL.

" I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well."- Psalm 139:14

 God did not make a mistake when He created me and you neither was He in a hurry when He was forming us. He took His time and we were fearfully made. Take a second to grasps this and truly understand it for when you do, you cannot help but love yourself. There's no point in fitting in to be part of what is consider popular or cool. Majority of the people in that group people strive so hard to be a part of, are all pretenders wearing masks in an attempt to hide their real self because of the fear of rejection. Take off the mask, and allow God to take glory for what He created. You cannot fulfill your destiny while pretending to be someone else. God didn't create you to be hidden. You are a child of Light, not darkness.

" Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven"-Matthew 5:14,16

The more I realize this, the more I thank God for my life and I desire to serve him with every breath and every fiber of my being. He has freed me to be me and given me the wisdom to know not to try to people-please. Do not be afraid to be YOU! Shine and live for Christ as He has ordained it and let everything else go. Don't deprive God of His glory. You are His creation! His Masterpiece! Live like it!

Yorkamazing <3

Today's Memory Verse (T.M.V)

Luke 12:7

"But Even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows."

Continue to see one of my favorite poems...

Study With Me: Week 1

I truly believe that the Almighty God in Heaven directs the paths of His children. No matter how bumpy the road may be, how long the route may seem, and how unfavorable the conditions you find yourself making the journey in may be, if you diligently serve God, He will direct your path. He cannot fail you. Though different from your plans, you can rest knowing that ALL things work together for your good. It is us that limits what God can and cannot use for our good when His word says ALL things! The good, the "bad" and the "ugly" are simple events meant to mold us into His image.

"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."-Romans 8:28

 I've been having this strong pull of the need to devote myself to the things of God, to be in His presence and staying there. I want to be able to hear Him clearly, to represent Him correctly, and  just to  Love Him more, not for the things He does, but because He is God, and God all by Himself. Well it has been my desire to know God more through His word so I went out a while ago to buy a new Bible and a devotional. Today in service, the message was all about knowing God's word and it spoke to me.

The message was " Your Word have I hidden in my heart" base on the scripture where it says
"Your word have I hid in my heart, that I might not sin against you."- Psalm 119:11 
 The word of God is our source of power and our weapon in battle. When Jesus was being tempted by the devil, Jesus was seen fighting the temptation by using the Word of God and the devil had to flee. Not knowing what God says about the circumstances you are in makes you gullible to the wiles of the enemy. It is like going into a war, with no protection nor weapons to fight back with when your Father owns the copyrights to the weapons and they are all available to you free of charge. It doesn't make any sense. You should be the most protected and armed person walking on the face of the earth! So we should equip ourselves with these weapons. Beside  being a source of power, the Word of God also serves to edify. The scripture says "that I might not sin against you" meaning when you know God's Words, you know His will and His plans which makes it harder to deviate from them. The Word of God also encourages. Regardless of the situation you are in, if You know God's word, you will be able to worship and praise in Him in the midst of your darkest hour because your heart will remind you that God said His plans for you are good (Jeremiah 29:11), He said He won't give you more than you can bear ( 1 Corinthians 10:13),  and various other scriptures for other situations. It gives you a hope and increases your faith because God cannot lie. If He said it, so shall it be.

With this message today and all that I have been experiencing with God lately, I am embarking on a challenge to arm/equip myself by memorizing a Bible verse each week because the Bible says we should not only be hearers of the Word, but also doers meaning we should put what you hear into practice.  At the end of every blog post I usually have a (T.M.V - Today's Memory Verse) but I will now have a weekly verse that I will blog all by itself. I will still include the T.M.V's because I believe that every deed/action/speech should be backed up by the Word of God. I encourage you to join me in this challenge and let us grow together in the faith. I strongly believe the time has come where God is searching for His own. we should be able to recognize the voice of God and obey.
"My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me"- John 10:27

I am going to start with the verse used in the sermon today because that summarizes the intent of this undertaking. To know God's word and hid it in my heart! So here is to week one! I am going to memorize the Bible verse(What is says) and where it can be found/location( the Book). I'll also be making flash cards as suggested by the Pastor so Study with me and feel encourage to share with friends. As you desire to seek God first and grow in Him, He will add all other things. (Matthew 6:33)That is His Word!

Yorkamazing <3

Week 1 Study With Me: Psalm 119:11

" Your Word have I hidden in my heart, that I might not sin against you"

He Would've Been 22 Today

Today is my friend's birthday but he is no longer alive. He would have been 22 today. A little over a year ago on May 1, 2011, he was shot in the head and pronounced dead on the scene. At the time, all I was worried about was final exams and where to host my 21st birthday dinner with friends, not knowing that my friend was dead. I found out about the incident a month and 6 days later in June after he had been buried and called/texted everyone I knew that knew him to confirm it because I refused to believe it. My heart literally was in pain. The shock of the news gave me physical pains and I just couldn't grasp it all. That entire day, my mind flooded with thoughts of him. That night, I dreamt about him throughout the night into the following morning. I went through his facebook, staring at his picture. I found myself daydreaming about him and was completely distracted at work. It was so painful to bear. Tears were not even to express my sadness. How could he be dead? Not just dead, but murdered!! Writing this still shocks me because it's so hard to believe that it is true. Is he really gone? Forever? Wow. Only God knows how much my heart aches for him when I think about him. It hurts me so bad.

I remember meeting him in August 2005 at Booker T. Washington High School and the High School for engineering professions. I was a 9th grader and he was a 10th grader. We rode the same school bus because we lived fairly close to each other. We endured the long school bus rides with broken seats and  no A/C up until his senior year, my junior year of high school. During those hour and a half bus rides, we would talk about any and everything. When we did stop talking during the trip, it was because he needed to finish his homework. He loved doing homework on the bus to pass time even though the bus rides were so bumpy. He had this fascination with biology that I couldn't understand. I hate biology, hence why I'm a chemistry major in college now, but he loved it. He had dreams of being a neurosurgeon and therefore I addressed him with "Dr." in front of his name because I believed in  him. Contrary to what most people saw him as during his senior year of high school, I knew he had a good heart and could really become someone great in life. He showed me the soft and gentle side of him that most people never got to see and I am grateful to have witnessed it. I prayed for him daily and cared for him. It was always my hope that he would rebound from what was happening and be so great that people will be shock and be embarrassed for doubting him. I prayed. I pray....I prayed.

We lost touch once he graduated but he never left my mind. I would randomly remember him and try to contact him and the last time I heard from him, he was doing well and that was that. Never in a million years did I think that a day like this will come, where I am found writing about him in past tense. I miss him and oh how I wished things ended differently. My friend is now a case number in the homicide department in Harris county, Houston, TX. Wow. If this pains me this much a year after it happened, I can not imagine what his family is going through. I pray that God will comfort them all. May they find joy in knowing that their son/brother/cousin/friend was loved.

I pray that we all learn to live everyday like it is our last because "yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift...that's why it's called the present." Most time as young people, the devil feeds us the lie that we can live our life anyhow we please(YOLO) as they know coin it, and then when we get old, we can then give our life to Christ, but this is a lie! Tomorrow is not promised to anyone. God desires us in the days of our youth! Do not put your salvation on hold because everyday you are alive, is a day closer, a minute closer, and a second closer to the day you will die. Live for Christ NOW!

"Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, before the days of trouble come and the years approach when you will say, "I find no pleasure in them"-- Ecclesiastes 12:1

 Let us also be mindful of the people we invite into our lives because they influence us (in a good way or in a bad way) more than we give credit for. The Bible even says

"Do not be misled: "Bad company corrupts good character."- 1 Corinthians 15:33 

Your destiny can change simply by those you hang around with.  Some "friends" are just not good for you and no friendship is worth your salvation. If you need to cut people off to make Heaven, so be it. Let Go. It is my earnest prayer that the Lord helps every reading this to truly seek Him everyday. May we all live to declare the goodness of God. May our lives reflect His glory, and when it is all over, May God welcome us into His kingdom. Amen.

In Memory of "Dr." Kendrick Ross

I love you. I miss you. 

Yorkamazing <3

Today's Memory Verse (T.M.V)

Psalm 90:12 

"Teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts towards wisdom"

Awkward Moment at McDonalds

I haven't blogged in a long time, and it has been on purpose. I've been at home enjoying the company of my family and my free time has been spent sleeping and eating, all of which I have no shame about. *laughs* I've had only about two weeks of "summer break" and I thank God for granting me the peace to be able to completing unwind and refresh again before the new academic year starts next week. So that's a mini update of my undertakings, but I will be updating daily or at least more frequently starting this weekend. My sincere gratitude for all those that still read my blog daily even without new posts! I truly appreciate it. Anyways, I digressed. Back to this awkward moment at McDonalds that happened today.

I was really hungry but we had many errands to run first before cooking so I went to McDonald's to buy something to eat. I drove up to one, and when I got there, I honestly could not remember the last time I had fast food. I was 3rd in line and I started sweating because I couldn't even remember the name of the any of the regular things I USED to get before my new found passion for health and nutrition. By the time it was my turn, I asked for more time so I could look over the menu all the while still sweating! My newly found and awakened health conscience wouldn't let me rest at all. I then started going though a series of emotions.

The first emotion I felt was anger/disappointment. I couldn't believe I was at McDonald's! How could I be about to spend money on highly processed crap disguised as food? How could I pay to consume this crap and put in into my mouth and body? Ewww! I just started thinking of all the fresh fruits and food I could buy for the same amount, prepare, cook, and eat and it would leave me feeling great!

The second emotion I experienced was a "let me try to redeem  the situation" type of feeling. Since I'm going to be stuck with this for today, what are the calories/nutritional values for these "food"?. I spent another couple of minutes comparing stuff and interesting enough, the mcDonald's had a chart on the counter showing the items with the lowest calories so I just made my chose from there. When I placed my order of just the chicken sandwich, the employee asked me if I'll like to buy a large drink for just a dollar more and I quickly said NO! I'm sure he probably thought I was being cheap, but I wanted to get out of there as fast as possible. I completely felt uncomfortable.

Once I placed my order, I rushed out like a celebrity attempting to avoid being noticed in a public area. I did not at all like the fact that I went there today. While driving home, I started to laugh at myself. I have truly changed!!! Wow! I couldn't believe how hard it was for me to order fast food and this really made me so proud of myself. When I started this journey of health 10.5 months ago, I told people I was on a LIFETIME journey, not a diet. I want to live the rest of my life health conscience because I feel so much better when I eat right and exercise and that's a feeling I don't want to give up anytime soon, or  ever. I thank God Almighty for opening my eyes and really helping me to get to where I am now. It'll probably be another couple of years before I head back to McDonalds or any other fast food. We shall see. :)

Yorkamazing <3

Today's Memory Verse (T.M.V)

2 Corinthians 5:17

"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold all things are become new."

True Love Waits Series.....(Part 3, Abstinence in 2012)

In a world of promiscuity, it seems no one preaches about abstinence anymore. I recently had a break after my final exams to actually sit down and watch one the only thing I turn on my tv to watch besides Food Network and HGTV, which is WE Tv's show called "Say Yes to the Dress". It's a show that shows soon-to-be-married women trying on wedding dresses and I'm a big lover of people getting married so I love the show. Anyways, the show went on a break so I flipped through the channels only to hear a informercial of a new show coming tittled "High School Moms" and a young girl's voice saying " I never thought I'll be 14 and pregnant". I sat still for a moment trying to comprehend what I was hearing. A girl is 14 years old or should I say 14 years young, and pregnant......WOW!

What's Done In The Dark....

People have been stopping me recently and asking me the "secret" to losing weight. I tell anyone that wants to hear that there's no secret. It's really a simple process that only requires persistency and dedication. How bad do you really want it? All it requires is for you to eat right, stay hydrated, and put in some form of physical activity throughout the week......and sticking to this for life.  It's not a diet nor a lose weight quick scam because it works and it produces long term results.

I titled this blog "What's Done In The Dark" because that's how I feel about losing weight and becoming healthy. It is only recently that people started noticing the difference in my stamina and appearance though I've been in this process now for almost 11 months. People are only seeing the results of 11 months of hard work, and not all the other months of sweating and discipline. No one really saw what I did in the dark. No one saw the waking up at 6:30am to go workout at the gym before morning lectures. No one saw that first day on the elliptical machines in the gym where trying to last 30 minutes felt like suffering through a heart attack. No one saw the first grocery trip where I had to learn how to shop the healthy way and bypass all the junk, and pick up fruits and vegetables. No one saw the moments of googling healthy ways to prepare food, or the thousands of times I would google up the nutritional value of products first before buying it or the nutritional value of restaurants before I go out to eat with friends just to ensure I don't deviate from the healthy things. No one saw how difficult it was to replace my addiction to sweet tea with water and those that know me will know that this was hard. I could go on and on.

Fast forward to today however, and everyone congratulates you. They see the changes and are proud of you and you can't help but smile. This shows that whatever you do in the dark will eventually come to the light, whether good or bad. Your private efforts will one day pay off. That which you do when no one is looking, shall be seen one day. I say success is nothing but a summation of little efforts. Therefore, do not be discourage if no one takes notice of your hard work. The word of God tells us

"And let us not grow weary in well doing; For in due season we shall reap, if we faint not"-Galatians 6:9

It may take months, or even years to achieve what it is you are going for, but you keep going.  Frustrations will come and there will be days when you want to give you, but keep going. Whether you have the support of others, or you are surviving on just your determination, keep going with all diligence. Whatever it is that you are working on, whether working towards being healthy,  finishing school, or laying the foundation of your dreams and aspirations, do it all with all diligence. God will honor it and your season of harvest will come when the whole world will be force to recognize it. What's done in the light, will come to the light!

Yorkamazing <3

Today's Memory Verse (T.M.V)

Luke 8:17

"There is nothing hidden that will not be revealed, and there is nothing secret that will not become known and come to the light"

The Age of Compromising "Christians"

We are living in an age where people-pleasing is leading us farther and farther away from the truth and the ways of God. We have fallen in love with the world and the things of the world.......but we want to hold on to our "I'm a Christian" label knowing fully well that we are not in anyway "Christ-Like" like the word Christian implies. We want the world and the desires of the flesh, but we want God to be okay with this. We even want Him to amend His holy standards to accommodate our flesh! Remarkable! In the midst of this twisting of standards, in an age where everyone wants to be a "Good girl gone bad", where evil prevails, darkness is desired, and the light and truth are shunned upon, God is still a HOLY God! His word still says that you cannot serve two masters and lukewarmness is still not good enough. You are either HOT or COLD. There's no in between with the things of God.

Awesomeness!

My Love Is He

My Love has hands

It reaches out to Him in warmest embrace

It outlines the features of His beautiful face

Leaves fingerprints of love that leads back to me if traced

And signs my name in His heart's sacred place

My Love has eyes

It sees the inner Him that most cannot find

Beholds His imperfections as one of a kind

For my love makes even the "off" things, fine

Because it sees.... for my love is not blind

My love has ears 

It hears every spoken word

The expressions of love behind musical chords

And It understands the looks, that which is not heard

Knowing that even in silence, we are in one accord

My love has a heart

It feels the that which can't be describe

It beats overwhelmed with emotions, filled with his vibe

Autenthic love like that of a virgin  bride 

For unto him alone has this my love subscribed

He is my Love. 

He whose hands, my heart, never fails to uphold

He whose eyes, my inner being, beholds

He whose ears, my thoughts, are told

He whose heart, for me, is forever renewed, never old

Yorkamazing <3

Written :August 9, 2012 

Music of My Heart- Nicole C. Mullen

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True Love Waits Series.... (Part 2: The Godly Man)

This day and age, it appears like the gentleman is an endangered species nearly driven to extinction. On the television and movie screens, you see too many men wanting to be a "player" and not enough aiming and desiring to be godly and God-fearing, future husbands and spiritual leaders of their households. I went with some friends to see the movie "Think Like A Man" earlier this year when it came out and the movie further exploits the idea of this lack of the gentlemen breed. Society has almost completely distorted the image of a Man as defined by God, but while the world's standards of a man is changing, it is a relief that God's standards have not changed.  True Love Waits....for the Godly man.


"The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delights in his way."-Psalms37:23
Women always say "There are no good man left", but that's not true. In order to find this "good man" we must stop looking in the wrong places. The world cannot give you a "good man".The "good man" we seek must first seek God. This "good man" must be delight himself in the way of the Lord. The word delight means that this man finds it pleasurable to do the Will of God. He must desire to be just like His Heavenly Father. Like Father Like Son.This also means the Godly man must be submitted to the authority of God so that he can lead his wife and children according to the ways of God. God is the one that orders His steps, his ambitions, his desires. This type of man, cannot be found at clubs every weekend, drunk with wine, and incoherent. The Lord simply cannot order his steps there.


"But I want you to understand that Christ is the head of every man, and the man is the head of a woman, and God is the head of Christ. " 1 Cor 11:3

No Godly woman will want to put herself under a faulty leadership. As the spiritual leader, he prays with you, and seeks the face of God concerning grave matters. He speaks with wisdom, is slow to anger, patient, and gentle but strong when circumstances call for it. The Godly man has learned to love.Taking after the Father, it is not hard for him to love sacrificially. You don't beg him for love because he readily gives it because he has experienced Christ's Love. This agape love transforms every aspect of his life including his relationships with others, and you.

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself up for her"-Eph5:25
He has been told by God to love his wife to the point where if the situation calls for it, he will gladly die for her just as Christ laid down his life for the church. This is Love! The woman is not left guessing " he loves me, he loves me not, he loves...." instead she can rest assured that even if no one else in this world loves her, she can depend on his love. It's the Love this world cannot offer. It's drama-free, stress-free, pain-free. Agape love is unconditional.

True Love Waits for this standard of manhood.  The gentleman is not an extinct species. The men out there pursuing this standard should feel encouraged. You all are swimming against the tide of sin instead of going with the flow and the reward of this is great. Uphold the standards!

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Yorkamazing <3

Today's Memory Verse (T.M.V)

Psalm 1:1-3

"Blessed is the man that walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of the scornful. But his delight is in the law of the Lord; and in his law does he meditate day and night. And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he does shall prosper."

Undeserved Favor

Today was a semi-rough day and to top it off, I was stuck outside in the typical Texas heat.... stranded. But of all the things that happened, I was constantly reminded about God's faithfulness and favor, divine favor, undeserved favor. When I needed help the most, before I can say the "In Jesus name I pray" to conclude my prayer, He already answered it. He sent the right people along to render help at the moment of desperation. He drops it in my heart who I should reach out to for every situation and it happened that those I reached out to, were always in a position where it appears they were ready and equipped to help with the very thing I needed help with. Today's post is short, but I learned to see the handwork of God in the small things today. In the midst of your darkest hour, He speaks peace and shines His light to direct you. The Lord will never disappoint His children so keep trusting in God and thanking Him in all things.

Yorkamazing <3

Today's Memory Verse (T.M.V)

Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your path"

Test of Character: You Just Lost One.

It's funny how you can be taking care of your business, and have someone irrelevant to you make a sleek remark slamming you all for the sake of starting a confrontation. It's true what they say when they say people will always talk. That will never change. What can change is your attitude and response to the talk. The stage I'm in in my life, is a grown woman stage.

"When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me."- 1 Corinthians 13:11

Staying True to You

When my day is over and I'm getting ready to sleep, I usually don't fall asleep right away. When I enter my bed, my mind starts to reflect over the day I just had. I think about every conversation I had. Did I kill anyone with my words, or did I speak life? I think about every interaction with people. Did they leave me happier than they were before they met me? I think about all the things I did, and the things I didn't do and when I'm done, I "grade" myself and pray about it thanking God for the things that went well, and asking God to help me improve in the areas that need improvement. I don't compare myself to anyone during the entire process. Why? Because it's my life, my journey. The only person I'm praying God should help me become better than is the woman I was yesterday. Not you. Not my mother. Not the woman the world thinks I should be. 

Health: Taste The Rainbow

True Love Waits Series....(Part1: What to do in the Wait)

When the 2012 started, I remember praying and asking God what my purpose for this year was and what it is I was supposed to do this year. In 2011 when I asked God the same question, the song He placed on my heart was "Moving Forward" by Israel Houghton and when I reflect back on the year, I see that indeed, I grew a lot that year and became a stronger version of myself. I put an end to some old things, while the doors of other things opened and I pressed forward. I brought a lot of things before God and He simply told me to wait. True Love Waits. So I asked Him " What do I do while I'm waiting?" and this year, the song that was placed on my heart was "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller.  It was through this song that God began teaching me about the waiting process.

First thing God told me to do was to delight myself in Him, drawing nearer to Him and truly getting to know Him. In doing so, He has allowed me to discover not only Who I am, but also Whose I am. 

Whose I am:

When you discover Whose you are, you realize that you are not cheap! your price is high! People should be careful of how they approach you because you are the child of a King which makes you royalty. They cannot just treat you anyhow because you deserve to be loved, and loved correctly! You cannot sell yourself cheap when you know this!

"Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies"-Proverbs31:10

 You are worth FAR ABOVE rubies! I once read where someone asked why the Bible didn't say "you are worth far above diamonds" and the answer was that though diamonds are expensive, you can walk into any ring store and buy one because they are not that rare. Rubies, precious stones, on the other hand, are both rare and expensive and God says you are worth FAR ABOVE that! While you wait, discover yourself in Him and know your worth! While you wait, wait knowing that singleness is not a curse; on the contrary it is a gift. God delights in our singleness because our attention is not divided. If we give Him use of our singleness, God can use that period to build you and shape you into the person you were created to be. He can and will use the waiting period to build the character and heart you'll need for when the wait is over. 

"An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord’s affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband."-1Cor7:34

Who I am

The waiting period is a period of growth. As you discover God, you should discover AND love yourself. Often times people rush into relationships without first learning to be alone. There's a difference between Being Alone, and Being Lonely so learn to enjoy your own company. What are your interests? passion? strengths? Goals? Find them and run with them. Idleness is dangerous. 

"She looks well to the ways of her household, And does not eat the bread of idleness."-Proverbs31:27

The virtuous woman doesn't sit idle so EXPLORE your interests. I wanted to learn to play the guitar, learn different things to cook, lose weight and take care of myself, go outdoors more, etc. and that's what I've been doing by God's grace. It is known that time flies quicker when you are busy with something and the same applies here. The Bible tells us that Ruth met Boaz while she was working his fields, not while she was locked away in her pajamas mourning her life while indulging in ice cream . She was active and it was even in the midst of her activity that she met her Boaz. Knowing Who you are and Whose you are makes it easier to know Who you will eventually attract and complement. Your waiting period is a period and an act of worship and obedience. It shouldn't been seen as a grudge. God is only using the period to perfect that which concerns you so in reality, the longer the wait, the better the product will be so don't rush God. It takes faith to wait, but wait expectingly. 

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Today's Memory Verse (T.M.V)

Hebrews 11:1 

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."

He called it Quits.....After 3 years

We got together 3 years ago during my freshmen year at the University of Texas-Austin. I'll admit, at first I wasn't that into him. Our existence/relationship, was primarily only because I needed him at that moment in my life not because he was was my first option. After just a few weeks together, I fell "in love" or "in like" with him. I've gotten used to having him around with me almost everyday. He was bright, very bright and just being around him made me happy. He carried my books, laptop, notes and everything else I needed to class for me and for that I was very grateful.

I Support Chik-Fil-A

Lately I've been hearing so much backlash about what Dan Cathy, COO of Chik-Fil-A, said in an interview about supporting traditional marriage between a man and a woman. 

"We are very much supportive of the family -- the biblical definition of the family unit," Cathy said. "We are a family-owned business, a family-led business, and we are married to our first wives. We give God thanks for that."- Dan Cathy 

I personally do not understand why there's so much drama surrounding this statement. Chik-Fil-A has ALWAYS been, a Christian owned fast food chain and they've made no secrete about that fact. They don't open on Sundays even though it always seems like I always want Chik-Fil-A sandwich with the special Chik-Fil-A sauce on Sundays!  Despite the revenue they could make by opening on Sundays they still close. So why then, knowing this, are people so upset that a BIBLE-BELIEVING CHRISTIAN does not support gay marriage when it's something their God stands against? Am I missing a point there? Wouldn't you EXPECT that response from a Christian? If a Muslim was asked, wouldn't you EXPECT that same reaction based on their faith? Why is that when someone takes the opposing view on homosexuality the person is automatically looked down on and labeled as being judgmental and a homophobic? Always asked to make an official statement of apology or else there's a big boycott? But when someone comes out in the media as being gay ( Anderson Cooper, Frank Ocean, just to name recent ones) it is celebrated with loud claps and praises and plastered all over every magazine and news frontline. When someone comes out and supports gay marriage, (Lady gaga, Carrie Underwood, etc) the same accolades are given them and they are seen as innovative, modern and cool! 

Believe it or not, there are people, many people, including myself that don't believe in gay marriage and God in heaven knows I have nothing against the person who is gay. There's no act of kindness or love I show and give a "straight" person that if given the opportunity I would withhold myself from doing if the person is gay. Why? Because gay or not, we are all people. My Bible calls us to love the sinner, but hate the sin. HOWEVER, if I'm asked "Do you believe marriage is only between a man and a woman?" my answer is YES! Yes with that exclamation point.

"But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect"- 1 Peter 3:15

Dan Cathy did just that. He fears God.He was asked about his opinion, and he gave it without disrespect. There's nothing wrong with sticking to your morales and belief. It is not hatred. It is not being judgmental. It is simply one choosing not to compromise ones faith and relationship with God for the sake of this world.That is honorable and commendable.  What does it profit a man to gain the whole world but lose his soul? Though it may not be a popular response, in all things we should Fear the Creator...not the creation. We should be more concern with pleasing GOD than having the approval of men.

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Today's Memory Verse (T.M.V)

Ephesians 6:13-14 

"Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place"

New Month....New Things!

Welcome to a New Month!

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Today's Memory Verse (T.M.V)

Psalm 37:5

"Commit everything you do to the LORD. Trust him, and He will help you"

Dance With Love

Love, 

Dance to the rhythm of my heart 

And Tango with my emotions

Intertwine your steps with mines, like art

As we showcase my joy through our motions

In the complete serenity of space

I swing with you among the stars

Confusing the glow of the sun to your face

For your beauty has raised all aesthetic bars 

Love, 

You are the essence of true joy

Which causes my mouth to sing melodies

My lips utter the lyrics, joy has employ

And my heart beats to the lyrical harmonies

Just like that, you've made music

And my soul is the dance floor

You do the step-to-step, brought it back to basics

and the simplicity of it all opened my love's doors

Love,

You've redefined happiness

For nothing with you is everything

As I waltz with you, I'm in sweet contentedness

At peace, and all I hear is the sound you bring

It's as nothing even matters, that's your attitude

For your embrace erases the outside

I find myself clutch in the strength of your solitude

Longing to be this new me that hid inside

Love,

As long as this heart beats, with you I will dance

For what I am and who I am, is your creation

How then can I to other beats prance?

When my heart beats in rhythm to your inspiration?

So Love,

Dance to the rhythm of my heart 

And Tango with my emotions

Intertwine your steps with mines, like art

As we showcase my joy through our motions

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 September 6, 2010
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"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love"- 1 Corinthians13:13